i think right now its pretty early in the morning, but i wanted to make sure i got all my thoughts down about "handmaid's tale" before i forgot everything. i finished reading the first 99 pages yesterday night, around 12, and i wanted to go to sleep -___-. So I'm writing it now, right after i wake up. =]

From the very beginning i thought that i would hate this book, mostly because it seemed like it was only going to talk about women losing their rights. I was right in a way but i think that the fact that i hated it made it so much more interesting. Like i couldn't put the book down until i knew what was going to happen. i thought the chapters ended in cliff hangers a lot so i didn't stop until i got to the end of chapter 17. Overall, it was so heartbreaking to read her story about trying to escape and then her constant feelings of missing Luke. i would hate to be a situation like that and when you read further and further into the book the laws become more real and more constricting. Also, the feelings of her being a person and having a mind to rebel becomes more visible. i mean its not a whole act of rebellion like trying to escape but more like the little things. Her doing those things made me feel like she was trying to keep her own sanity and believed that she was not going to die living like this, that there was a way out and she would do her own little things now and then to rebel. rebelling made it seem like it was also a way to remind her that her life was how SHE control it and not everything was planned out for her. and i think that those little rebellious acts made it more challenging not to read ahead.